Sources of Inspiration – Tumblr

Hey everyone! ❤

Summer is coming and who else just loves the weather outside?? Me definitely! But I found some time to upload a new post today that is a kinda short but I hope you like it anyways 🙂 This is another post of the collection “Sources of Inspiration” and for me the biggest source is tumblr! I just love it so much and that’s also the place where I took these pictures from.

Now I don’t want to go on talking and relax a bit more in the sun so enjoy these pictures which will hopefully get you as inspired as me ❤

Kijana xxx

About the stupid little monsters in the tummy

Hey you ❤

Again I have to apologize, but something is wrong with the backup here.

I actually planned a “What’s on my iPhone” post and I wrote that about 2 hours, and then I wanted to add the pictures and suddenly the last backup was deleted, so I made this post.

These monsters I am mentioning in the title are also known as butterflies, but I use to call them monsters. Why? Hm, I think butterflies are beautiful, nice and lovely, but love is not always that beautiful.

It is a hard topic to write about because everybody has a different way of view. To be honest, I am disappointed of love. In my opinion it hurts too often. I mean I say this all in general, what is wrong, but these were my first thoughts.

People on my age fall in love, but you know, we watch the movies with the happy ending and although we do not want to admit it, we expect such a love story, too. We want to be loved.

All I write here I can reflect on myself. Like we all have this one boy, we cannot forget. For my new year resolutions I decided to let people like him go, but I realized that we cannot pretend that we are over someone when our stupid heart says the complete different.

Lots of my friends have a boyfriend and somehow, when you are laying in your bed at 11 p.m., you are thinking about these things. And then you are thinking about all these people who have someone they can cuddle and love while you are crying alone.

And then, there is this moment, when your sad playlist is over and you decide to give a fuck of feelings.

This moment changes you and the question is whether this is good or bad. And it makes me kinda smile to think about how often I went through such a time and how often I will go through it, because I know when I’m gonna see him, I will throw everything away ready to scream him into his face ” I love you! Why can’t you see that? Why do you cause billions of feelings? Tell me and love me! ” and in the end, we will pass by, with a shy smile on our lips, asking ourself why we didn’t do that.

But we all have that hope that he is thinking the same.

I know this is a strange post, but maybe some of you can understand what I mean ❤ 🙂

xx

A.

A post about… wait, about what?

Hey guys ❤

Yep, today it is my turn with the post. I was thinking about a topic for quite a while, and then I decided for a mix of everything I want . This has two main reasons. First: We had school until 5 o’clock p.m and nothing really special happened today. Just hanging around the school with all these people. By the way, whenever I am entering school I am listening to the song “I don’t fuck with you” by Sean Paul to get into the right mood 😀 People always say that music changes the way of view. I think, that’s kinda right. Like, that’s maybe embarrassing, but whenever I am listening to “Blank Space” I am feeling cute as fuck, “Take me to Church” makes me feel musing and “Chandelier” like an awesome dancer 😀 Well, I think I went off on a tangent 🙂

When I look back at the first days of the new year, I have to say, that yesterday was my favorite day. It includes everything I wanted to realize. Like for first I slept well and long and after that I had breakfast with my mum and my lovely sister.

At the evening, when I watched “Gossip Girl” and ate a little bit of ice cream, I made something like a plan for the next day, which included what I wanted to do. On the plan I wrote learning math, doing a bit of pilates. That was what I wanted to do. So, I did. And oooh my gosh, when I finished learning, it was about four o’clock p.m my mother and my sister started to bake waffles, and you have to know that I ADORE them ❤

So I have to say it was a very successful afternoon and it ended by scrolling through my pictures  and well there I found some nice ones but also so many pictures, where I thought “What the…??!!” 😀

You know the feeling when you did some very nice selfies and you are thinking “Daaaamn I think I actually do not look as ugly as normal” and then, full of enthusiasm you scroll through you pictures and think “Uhm, okay, I .. well.. no, just no”.

But I think I’m gonna show you some of these pictures in a separate post 😉 So it’s everything embarrassing 😀

Yep, that’s exactly what I thought yesterday evening ❤