Hey you ❤
Again I have to apologize, but something is wrong with the backup here.
I actually planned a “What’s on my iPhone” post and I wrote that about 2 hours, and then I wanted to add the pictures and suddenly the last backup was deleted, so I made this post.
These monsters I am mentioning in the title are also known as butterflies, but I use to call them monsters. Why? Hm, I think butterflies are beautiful, nice and lovely, but love is not always that beautiful.
It is a hard topic to write about because everybody has a different way of view. To be honest, I am disappointed of love. In my opinion it hurts too often. I mean I say this all in general, what is wrong, but these were my first thoughts.
People on my age fall in love, but you know, we watch the movies with the happy ending and although we do not want to admit it, we expect such a love story, too. We want to be loved.
All I write here I can reflect on myself. Like we all have this one boy, we cannot forget. For my new year resolutions I decided to let people like him go, but I realized that we cannot pretend that we are over someone when our stupid heart says the complete different.
Lots of my friends have a boyfriend and somehow, when you are laying in your bed at 11 p.m., you are thinking about these things. And then you are thinking about all these people who have someone they can cuddle and love while you are crying alone.
And then, there is this moment, when your sad playlist is over and you decide to give a fuck of feelings.
This moment changes you and the question is whether this is good or bad. And it makes me kinda smile to think about how often I went through such a time and how often I will go through it, because I know when I’m gonna see him, I will throw everything away ready to scream him into his face ” I love you! Why can’t you see that? Why do you cause billions of feelings? Tell me and love me! ” and in the end, we will pass by, with a shy smile on our lips, asking ourself why we didn’t do that.
But we all have that hope that he is thinking the same.
I know this is a strange post, but maybe some of you can understand what I mean ❤ 🙂