Current Favorite Songs

Hey everyone ❤

Today I decided to show you my most listened and favorite songs. I think everybody knows this: you have tons of songs on your phone but just listen to maybe 10-20 of them every day 😀 That’s why I clear up my music library every now and then. Often it depends on my mood what I hear but lately I haven’t been good but that’s another thing.

Anyway, here are my favorite songs to which I usually listen to in the last few weeks 🙂 (if you click on the song title, it will automatically direct you to the video link):

Rap / Hip-Hop

Freak My Shit – New Boyz

Love Me – Lil Wayne

Make It Nasty – Tyga

So High – Wiz Khalifa

No Type – Rae Sremmurd

Chill Step

So Good To Me – Chris Malinchak

Youth (Remix) – Daughter

Fifteen (Remix) – Goldroom feat. Chela

Smoke And Mirrors (Remix) – Patrice

Thinking ‘Bout You – Frank Ocean


Thinking Out Loud – Ed Sheeran

Real Love – Clean Bandit feat. Jess Glynne

Masterpiece – Jessie J

Haunted – Beyoncé

Blank Space – Taylor Swift

I hope you like them as much as I do and if you do please leave it in the comments 🙂

Have a good day!

Kijana xxxxx

About the stupid little monsters in the tummy

Hey you ❤

Again I have to apologize, but something is wrong with the backup here.

I actually planned a “What’s on my iPhone” post and I wrote that about 2 hours, and then I wanted to add the pictures and suddenly the last backup was deleted, so I made this post.

These monsters I am mentioning in the title are also known as butterflies, but I use to call them monsters. Why? Hm, I think butterflies are beautiful, nice and lovely, but love is not always that beautiful.

It is a hard topic to write about because everybody has a different way of view. To be honest, I am disappointed of love. In my opinion it hurts too often. I mean I say this all in general, what is wrong, but these were my first thoughts.

People on my age fall in love, but you know, we watch the movies with the happy ending and although we do not want to admit it, we expect such a love story, too. We want to be loved.

All I write here I can reflect on myself. Like we all have this one boy, we cannot forget. For my new year resolutions I decided to let people like him go, but I realized that we cannot pretend that we are over someone when our stupid heart says the complete different.

Lots of my friends have a boyfriend and somehow, when you are laying in your bed at 11 p.m., you are thinking about these things. And then you are thinking about all these people who have someone they can cuddle and love while you are crying alone.

And then, there is this moment, when your sad playlist is over and you decide to give a fuck of feelings.


This moment changes you and the question is whether this is good or bad. And it makes me kinda smile to think about how often I went through such a time and how often I will go through it, because I know when I’m gonna see him, I will throw everything away ready to scream him into his face ” I love you! Why can’t you see that? Why do you cause billions of feelings? Tell me and love me! ” and in the end, we will pass by, with a shy smile on our lips, asking ourself why we didn’t do that.

But we all have that hope that he is thinking the same.

I know this is a strange post, but maybe some of you can understand what I mean ❤ 🙂